03.09.03 - 12:41 am
who knows what they want for the rest of their lives? i think part of my problem with dealing with the future is the way i handle the past. i'm unlike a lot of you. a lot of you think in the present, with no idea for the future. i think in the future, with no idea for the present. i know what i want. i just don't know what i've got. i want to inspire. i want to love. i want a warm house. i want exciting adventures across the world. i want to teach, and i want to learn. what about now? hardly anything... all i think about is what i'm going to have... what i'm going to need, but i hardly ever consider what i have or need now. i need to deliver inspiration unto this world, but i have no earthly clue where to begin. my dreams of programming video games (my portal for inspiring people) has slightly changed... i don't feel as sharp about it as i did before. i am really considering teaching high school history, and traveling during the summers with my future wife and family. i'd love that to happen. i almost know that i would be happy as a teacher. that's why i hate it when people say things like, "there's no money there" or "i won't marry you if you do that".
you know what, why pursue anything if it doesn't truly make you happy? it must always be necessary for yourself, and don't let anyone destroy that or take it away from you. in our society, freedom may not be found in words at a speech, or declarations in a book, but it's still in our fucking hearts.
