12.12.01 - 9:43 pm
4th day in scrubs... it's really amazing. walking around the OR, occasionally glancing in and seeing an operation going on... it's nothing like the movies or shows, which are complete bullshit now that i've had a first-hand-eyewitness account. the actors you see on TV.. they have it all, the clothes, the scrubs, the folicle caps on their head, and the shoe boots to protect the ground from infection, or transmitting disease. but they don't have the grace of a true doctor. when you're standing next to them at 7:48am, stripping down to your boxer-briefs, listening to them talk to one another.... you realize something... you have no idea. no idea of what happens, or what goes on.. they don't stop because they're scared, or sick.. or tired... they have grace.. and it's overwhelming.
ah well, i was reading over the entries of all my friends... i find it so interesting that i can delve so deeply into their thoughts without them knowing, with a simple click of my web-browser. =)
i can't relate, but can.. it's a difficult situation to describe, other than the fact that i fit in there somewhere.. by chance, mistake, or free-will... probably a large mix of it all. i just wanted to say that I love you all.. and that I hope you a very wonderful Christmas... it's really important... this was my grandfather's favorite holiday season.. and it's mine too.. it's too fulfilling to describe.. so get the most from it... goodnight you all.
